Re:ゼロから始める異世界生活 4th season

I feel like people just summarize it as Subaru having to go through season 1 all over again but the situation is VERY different this time. When he first died, he was always the one pushing himself to keep on trying so that he could save Emilia and everyone else, but now without any memories of them, they're just random people to him. He's no longer doing this for others, his deaths are now just pure meaningless torture that he has no understanding of. The willpower that Subaru had that allowed him to continuously thrust himself into danger was born from his bonds with others, but now that he is truly alone, we see how quickly he breaks down. The scene where he recalled not wanting to wash the mug nearly made me tear up, I'm fucking praying that he doesn't have to go through more, I don't wanna see my poor boy suffer like this.

Yeah. The first arc had a simple objective: Defeat Elsa and save Emilia, Felt, and Rom. There wasn't room for feelings of betrayal or anything, since they all acted at least somewhat nicely towards him. In arc 6, he actively knows that someone within that group wants to kill him, and he doesn't know who it is. It's extremely sad for me because if he had survived longer in the first loop, which was the one where he was acting perfectly like Subaru from arc 1, to the point of connecting with those people, he probably wouldn't have broken down so much. Example: Julius is going to fight Reid again, and for some reason, Reid attacks Subaru. Julius defends Subaru. Subaru realizes that Julius is an ally, probably removing him from the list of suspects.

Sounds like speed running character development. Currently he has no reason to do any better. My guess is that next episode he'll do/ witness, something horrendous and then he'll see one of the characters break down while trying to reach out to him. He'll die and start over again. But this time he'll have a reason to do better. I think he'll be in his lowest where rem / Emelia / Beatrice will lift him up again.